Last week was all about headspace control. Something that many people struggle with, and I always feel that I struggle with it more than most.

The trouble is that it makes me a less pleasant person to be around. Not that I get nasty towards people, but I crawl more into my own world. I stop taking part in the joyful moments that are happening in the here and now, always busy thinking about days that don’t even exist yet.

It helps when my partner asks me about it. She often does, and I am very thankful for that. I also understand that sometimes she doesn’t want to. I need to untangle that knot myself. But it always helps if you can get that knot out of your head and put it out there. Get another opinion. Test whether the monster is really 10 feet tall and has five heads to cut off.

I had such a monster 👹 at the beginning of last week. I chopped off four of its five heads myself, but by showing that beast to my partner and getting her opinion, I was eventually able to strike it down. I am thankful for that.

The day when the beast might (!!) appear, might is the magic word, is still to come. We will see if it is as big and monstrous as I imagined it to be. If it appears at all.

For now, much of my headspace is back. And I fully need it to enjoy the present moment.